About the Creator
The Full Story
I have been right where you are: on the verge of coming up with a great idea, only to have it laughed at in your face.
HAHA THATS THE DUMBEST THING I HAVE EVER HEARD. Sound Familiar?
I want to share with you the story of me, how I go to this point in life and where I want to head from here on out.
I do not live in fear anymore, and want to help others do the same
I guess I should start off talking about my credentials, and what has gotten me here: sheer determination, stress and lots of stubbornness.
THE BEGINNING
It all started about 5 years ago. I hated my life, and everything in it. and when I say i hated my life, i really mean i HATED IT. I had worked at a livestock market for going on 7 years, and farming with family doing the same thing over and over again every day for what I felt was nowhere near enough for the damage I was doing to my body at the livestock market, was in the middle of yet another failing relationship, my family was telling me how to run my life, and i felt like i was not in control of anything. It felt like i was standing in the middle of an old castle and just watching the walls decay around me until the just crumbled and fell in on me. There was more hardship than I ever could actually ever put on this page with the audience reading it and going.. gheesh.
A few years later, I was promoted from laborer to supervisor and thought everything was going to change and life would be great because now I am starting to take control of my life again and get paid my worth. I know there's a lot of you reading this that I ironically laughed at that last sentence. Lets just leave the central part out of this and just say I quit about 8 months later. Which led me to quitting and finding another job trying to sell supplemental insurance door to door and destroying my confidence to the lowest point it had ever been. at that time, my relationship with my girlfriend at the time was starting to strain because I was starting to mentally shut down from the exhaustion of being on the road, and trying to have a functional life outside of being overwhelmed and never really feeling good enough. Things didn't work out. And I will admit that it was 50/50 on that because I wasn't showing up and she had closed off to me and was pretty much riding it out until terminal failure.
I had 2 things that I loved after my failed relationship: my dog, and photography. I loved doing photography on the side and never thought my skills were good enough to amount to anything at the time. Then when I actually sold a picture to my friend, Sterling, because he liked it so much he wanted it I realized that this may be something that's worth pursuing. So that was when I decided to invest in a decent camera and a lens and get out and enjoy my life in my free time. Yes I had found yet another job by then, but i just never felt fulfilled. I always had the feeling that there was something more: something I had to do to help others grow. I got my camera out there and just started taking pictures of lightning, storms, and anything that would bring some excitement into my life. I finally got some good ones that made it into the local magazine, and then it was a few more.
I decided it was time to take it to the next level and put some pictures in a photo competition. The first time is always the hardest, and I didn't place. there was one of two ways I could have taken this: give up or get better, I chose the second. after hundreds of hours, thousands of photos, a newer camera, and a photography course I made it to second place and got it on the wall for a year!
THE SYNTHESIS (OR AWAKENING)
I spent a lot of time in my life trying to figure out who I was. I never felt like I belonged to a certain group, or even my family. I mean, yes people would talk to me and I did have friends but i was never really invited to things because I was working all the time. So they finally just quit asking and started assuming that I was always too busy for them. And that is completely understandable because I really wasn't the person anyone wanted to be around either. The freedom from the jobs from time to time gave me the opportunity to work on me. I had time to wander the Black Hills of South Dakota, camp right near Devils Tower and finally take that deep breath of relaxation because there was no pressure on me.
Sometimes that's all we really need as a person, time for introspection and hear those voices in ourselves that we have been putting off. it brought out the shamanic side of me: the earthly, primal side that connects you back to your roots. It's that feeling of dancing around the fire, with your tribe as you celebrate life. There was only one problem.. I didn't have a tribe. I was tending the fire, dancing, and singing alone. I was always helping people through their struggles and issues and letting them leap forwards but never tended to my own fire.
I have spent the last 4 years in solitude, working on me. I have fought many of my own demons, and grown as a human being. It took me until a few weeks ago ( and let it sink in and click) that I was put on this earth to help heal others.
I have been gifted the special ability to see through what people say and get to to the actual issue.
ENDING
I am ready to finally help others. I have fought my own pain and looked into the void of my own self, and its time you do the same as well.
The growth is accomplished: Speaking with ancestors, Showing gratitude, Dancing with the spirits, Finding my inner spark, working alongside my inner critic.
The Certifications are done: life coaching, meditation guide, sylvotherapy, Life's challenges. AND IM STILL HERE.
Now i call to you do do the same. lets set up the initial consultation and get you headed where you want to go in your life.
Are you tired of waking up with the pain of not achieving those goals you had so much fire and fervor for?
How about not wanting to feel stuck any more with a current project or life goal?
If you have an open mind, and an open heard you can accomplish anything you set your mind to. Let looking into the void of yourself IGNITE the flame in you and set that THUNDEROUS spark of life come back to you.
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